Hallo! Just thought I'd check in on the small chance anyone was actually wondering where I'd disappeared to ;) as you can probably guess it was another hospital stay. I knew it was on the cards because I just couldn't breathe but I wasn't expecting there to be a bed available that day when I went to clinic on the 2nd June so I wasn't really prepared! But I was there for just over three weeks to be reunited with my old friend Optiflow.
This is oxygen that is heated as it's more comfortable to breathe in (although the tubes are a bit of a 'mare to wear!) and it also acts like a steamer for me as it helps to unclog the rubbish on my lungs.
I could go into my stay and how my right lung got so clogged up at the bottom it didn't work and I couldn't breathe but honestly I just want to leave it all behind me. I know a big part of this blog is about raising awareness of Cystic Fibrosis but right now I don't want to think about how ill I got and how ill I am, I just need a bit of a break I think. I've had a bad year healthwise and we're not really sure if this just the longest blip ever or if things are going downhill now which to be honest is a scary thought, I don't like this being in limbo business. This is probably the most pathetic sentence I'm ever going to write but I've been feeling a bit emotionally drained by it all, I've been feeling a bit dragged down. I'm sure I'll get over these feelings now I'm home again though, I'm still on my home oxygen and IVs but from now on I'm going to be sticking to my super strict hospital regime and I'm hoping it'll make a difference. I've always been really compliant with my meds and treatment but this is all more intense and time consuming. I think it'll be worth it though!
Not only must I do it for me but also my family! I could've spent the whole time sulking about the things I missed out on - the dressmaking course I was going to start, a night out with my friends, loads of cool blog events and most annoyingly of all my niece Florrie's christening </3 just to name a few things BUT my family are just the best. They do everything to make hospital as least crummy as possible so I had lots of help and visits and treats. There's also a really nice park behind the hospital so they'd get a wheelchair and portable oxygen for me and we'd go out for a walk. When I get ill it doesn't just affect me but also my family, probably more so I'd say because they have all the worry. But I'm just so lucky to have them and my friends, I don't think I'd get through any of this without them. We had a big BBQ yesterday which was also to say goodbye to my grandparents who are back off to Ireland today after coming for the Christening. I'm sad I didn't get to see as much of them because of being in hospital but hopefully I'll be well enough to go over to see them later in the year.
But anyway now I'm back I want to blog again because I missed it loads! Luckily I could catch up with everyone's posts in hospital with the bloglovin' app on my phone but I can't wait to get commenting again.
How have you been? Hope you're enjoying the sun now it's finally arrived!